and I know it's true. It doesn't matter if the feeling comes and goes, it's the truth. I believe that if I feel it, it must be true. No one seems to care unless and until I say it out loud and only then do I get replies that say the same things that yours here did. "I would care" or "we'd notice" and then, as soon as I stop saying "I feel alone and ignored" the replies stop and again, no one really does notice if I disappear. So, I can't help but feel that the replies are either superficial or obligatory or both. HOWEVER, I"m sure that people here would miss YOU though. I'm just sure they wouldn't and don't miss me. There are alot of false niceties that people feel obligated to express and one can never know if the expression is real or not. That's the hell of trying to live in a social structure that values the 'good' lie. By 'good' lie I mean; we live in a society of salesman who lie to get you to buy their product, the televangelist who lies to make money, the white lie to make you feel better about yourself, the visual lies that show us flawless models on magazine covers who have, in reality, been airbrushed and digitalized to just look that way. How can one know when a sentiment is meaningful and real or just the obligatory lie to make us feel better????
that's just my feeling on it. I'm brutally honest 99% of the time so I guess that's why I am alone. I don't ask for lies, I ask for truth, even if I don't like what I hear.
What do you all think??

"hold me now, I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking......maybe six feet ain't so far down"