I cant wait until I find a man like this =]

Thankyou all for your advice. I didn't think much of the three years I went saying no, but if its a good thing to have done, I'll try and focus on this. I do agree about the protection and stuff, and I'm working on this at the moment. I don't want to be caught off-guard again.. at least if I make the mistake again, I can be sure nothing but my mental state will change. Hopefully not even that. Thankyou all for your empathy. I'm going to try and have a plan in place with a friend for when I get like that again.