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Originally Posted by nightsky
I really think T did everything he could on his part.
And I forgive him for the mistakes of last year, truly, deep down.
I just realized that I am always going to be on guard, waiting for the other shoe to drop. It's not his fault, or mine. It's my history, and a bad year, and a few too many mistakes, and an ongoing situation that just is what it is.
I think when I thought I quit last summer and ended up going back, there were still some big things I needed to work through from everything that went on. And I was right - T didn't really "get it" until September - but when he finally did get it, he GOT it. And then he worked so hard to repair the damage, and I love him for that.
I absolutely trust that he cares for me and wants me to not be hurt.
I just had to do this for me.
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I hear you and understand. It's sounds as though you are at peace with this - at an okay place. I hope that you can carry this peace as you grieve.
Leaving a situation can be very hard, even when it is time to go.
We'll be here for whatever comes next. I appreciate your sharing your journey so much. This is soooo not easy.
Take care. Love your family, your dog, and yourself. No, you are definitely not alone.