I am 40 years old and have been divorced for 2years. We were together for 10 and I really thought he was my soulmate. He asked for the divorce and told me he was in love with another woman and they have since been together. What I haven't told you is I am ashamed to admit that I was unfaithful to him and he found out. We went to counseling and he said he forgave me, but he never got over it and soon was in love with someone else. I can't get over the guilt of being unfaithful to him. It was the stupidist thing I have ever done in my life and I cannot forgive myself. I lost my best friend and husband and got what I deserve I guess. My question is when am I going to be able to go a day without thinking of him and wishing we could get back together? How am I ever going to be able to start a new relationship with someone when I am still in love with my ex? How long is this going to take? It has been 2 years and it hurts as much as it did when he first told me it was over.