As of now in my life, I don't feel like I have any regrets from the past. However, I wish that things can be different. Lately in the past year I have been having health anxiety everyday. Today was no exeption and I think it was a little worse today. I freaked out when I saw some things on my skin that looks suspicious. I talked to a friend at work and he said that as you get older, you will see things on your skin that will look suspicious and you will feel things also.

It wasn't long ago for me that I didn't have any health worries whatsoever. Around last May I had skin cancer and then after the removal of it, some complications came up and that messed me up. It's still has me all messed up today. I really hate it!

The biggest regret that I feel as of now from the past is that I never met the right woman to be involved with. I know that many people around my age are telling me that marriage is no big deal. So many I have spoken to are divorced. I suppose that they are right, but at least I wanted to have a chance. I let go of a possibility about 20 years ago. I never regretted not marrying her (she was in love with me and wanted to marry me. I didn't feel the same way). But I regretted with the way that relationships for me turned out after that. I didn't think it would happen that way.