thank you rose. agree, the kids must come first. My daughter is a senior so college is around the corner, a long corner lol. Her son is in college this year and she made him move back in. 1 because his grades and two I really think she wants him there. She had a breakdown when he left this year. She seems happier that he is back. The 3rd, she does have a small daughter, she is 10. Soooo hopefully dont need to wait for her to go to college. Her daughter does really love me. Anyway, I have hope, and that's what gets me through the day somewhat. Ill continue to have some thereapy and I'm going to the doctor next week hoping to get something to break the edge from this anxiety. Have some friends that are taking lexapro and they said they love, could not do well without it. Again thanks