You know your behaviors are bad, but want to justify your actions?

Can you talk to T about what you need. your opinion does matter. It's your therapy.

Did your behaviors impact your T. Have you wronged her or hurt her feelings? Sometimes people, even T's, get a bit miffed when they are wronged. Maybe T knows how you feel about wanting to justify your behaviors and shes thinking it's not going to do you any good to coddle you.

Don't know what your behaviors were...

Hope you two can work it out. Good luck.