hi everyone. i have gotten much worse since the last time that i was here. and i know that most of you probably won't care. but...i dunno, i'mre trying to reach out, or something. i've moved from only cutting to also burning. done that a handful of times. have accelarated my cutting as well. have been seeing my new T once a week for about a month now, but i don't see that going anywhere really. i think that i am on a downward spiral, i seem to be doing more and more self harming things. like stopping my medicine. i haven't been taking it, because i don't think that it is doing me any good. i have also been OD'ing on pills every once in a while...i dunno, i'm so messed up, and i just can't seem to get back on track. school is finally over, so that's good, i guess. except for the fact that i don't have a job, so i am just home all day, left to stew and contemplate. anyway...i dunno what my deal is anymore. i can't seem to get above this, i just keep sinking. sorry to bother.

~dreamer~

[b] These wounds won't seem to heal...this pain is just too real..there's just too much that time cannot erase....[b]