Well we had T tonight. I didn't get full closure on this but I was heard and the T talked about the messages we were both sending each other.

He is insecure, my H's mom and dad both cheated on one another threwout there marriage. So he has not been directly exposed to faithfulness. He has far more experience seeing people cheat.

The question to him was: Have I ever been unfaithful to him. Do I openly flirt w/ other men. Has he ever seen me do anything to make him think I'd cheat. Notes, phone numbers, unexplained hotel bills anything that makes me look guilty has he seen any of that. His answer was NO.

For me the message I am sending him is I need a connection. I am not great in social situations and do not like attatchment.

Her Question to me was what is it that I don't like about face to face relationships. I told her the convience of having a relationship that was not threatening, had little chance of hurting someone's feelings, and not having to be availiable all the time and feel bad for saying no I can't go or don't want to go somewhere. That is why I would rather have friends in chat.

The T told my H more or less. If you can use your phone and do what you want to then she should be able to use the computer and do what she wants to.

She asked me what would I lkie his responce to be. I told her I can't just stop mid sentence and cut the computer off. I would like him to give me a few miniutes to finish what I am doing and I'd be glad to come talk to you or help you w/ something.

So I guess overall things went good.