I've been having a really tough time lately. I've been feeling really isolated and alone ever since New Years and I just keep going deeper into the rut. I had a really bad time over the weekend - I got mad at a friend for not inviting me to a party, and got mad at the guy I like for not liking me. I spoke to my T last night but it just made me feel worse. He was really rough on me. He was being condescending and telling me how bad all my behaviors are. Of course I know they're bad. I've been through all that before. Knowing it's bad is obviously not enough to stop my compulsion when I'm feeling really down. I just wasn't in the state of mind for his "tough love." I'm not emotionally ok enough. I need help with coping mechanisms or something, not someone telling me I'm wrong. If knowing I was wrong was enough to stop me I would have stopped by now. I just really need a pick me up right now and that really was the last thing I needed from T yesterday. I also find that if someone is telling me what I'm doing is wrong in a sort of condescending way, it just makes me resist their message even more. It just makes me want to justify my actions. Is that normal? If someone is speaking to me gently then it's easier to agree that I'm wrong. I just don't know what to do when I'm feeling so down and desperate and I have no one I can go to.