I'm feeling trapped in so many ways.

In my marriage.... I am so dependent on my husband. He makes the "big bucks" while I only work part time because full-time tends to be too stressful for me and stress=episodes. I feel guilty that he works so hard and we still struggle. We get by, but nothing extra- no nice vacations, no more shopping sprees...credit cards got maxed out and we had to file for bankruptsy this past year.
It sucks. I need clothes but I don't buy them because the kids always need stuff, plus I am overweight and feel like its a waste of $ on me. I always say I'm gonna lose weight and fit in my old clothes which has not happened..have every size from 8-18. waah poor me.
My husband never buys anything for himself and gets mad at me when I buy clothes for him therefore I deny myself the things I need- I know this must sound unreasonable but thats how I feel.

Feel trapped in this bipolar crap..the meds.. my brain is mush, memory- pretty much gone. Sick of taking it afraid not too.

And in this fricken house in the middle of nowhere that we don't own because we lost ours to foreclosure.

I feel miserable