Mixed states are the worst state, in my opinion, someone with bipolar can have,
Over the last 6 yrs or so I have been there too often.

Beware they can be dangerous. The nature of the state you are in sometimes makes it hard to reach out for help. Please Please Involve someone in the mental
health field now. I say this because the only times I have attempted suicide were in a Mixed state.

Please take care of yourself