Thanks for thinking of me too. I've tried so, so hard to fix everything. T just isn't hearing me, isn't helping, keeps saying things and doing things that are too harsh. It's just not fair that she's suddenly nothing like she used to be. I know I'm not helping because of that lack of trust. As soon as she started to sound like she did last year, I panicked because I thought she was going there again, and of course, my lack of trust actually set things off again (while she's busy being a bit too harsh and impatient). I wish I could return later, but it doesn't feel possible...because there seems to be so little of her left. I think she's done with me. I'll try to go to the last session with an open mind and see what's possible. I don't think she'll be very gentle with me though. Ugh. I'll miss her forever too.

You hang in there. What you've been doing is amazing and I know there will be times when the difficulty of it rises up again for you. I'm still really sad that this has happened for you, but I'm glad for all the good things and the happy moments you had with T too.