Been so down last two weeks and still another before I see you. Sometimes I do the work I'm supposed to and other times I don't. I dread going in to show you how I am feeling now. Things were on a bit of an upswing - seeming better. And now I'm back down. You must hate to see this back and forth. I'm failing at your foolproof techniques.
I'm so lonely. It all started after I came to see you last - you had to talk about your wife and happy family. That's nice but it heightened my loneliness and reminded me that I am just a number, just another task in your hard day's work. Then you go home to something I have never had and forget about your clients.
A tough few weeks have followed in a number of ways. I wish I could see you this week. I need it now. I feel I bugged you too much last rough time with all the extra appts - some last minute. At some point you'll refer me. I'm not getting the work done am i... I hate disappointing you. and you are my only true support though. i love you.