me, be specific? haha..lol.... On a topic about feeling repulsive to the world...lol...

sorry for laughing. I laugh cuz I can be pinpoint specific. it's what I do. Brutal, raw honesty is part of my self destructive behavior lol.

I'm not overwhelmed. You don't have to worry about that with me.

how is it going with the psych major anyways? that is an awesome field!
are you on for research? or do you have a condition as well? either way, glad you are here!

The kids in school. they went out of their way to demonstrate to me the flaws that made me different. it was something that I saw too. I played stupid, even though I was not. but if they knew I was smart, then it would have been worse.

down to a game in P.E... I was the inferior one. the other kids tried to show me what to do, the right way to do things. I saw them, but my way was so much different, I couldn't play by their rules no matter how hard I tried. But I did try. I always failed. and this was rubbed in my face constantly. it was this way with relationships. I never really had a friend growing up cuz I wasn't like the other kids. I became known for what I was. I ended up believing that too.

specifics lol - I watched the way that two people I knew interacted. I saw the things that they did as friends. I tried to fake it before but I only got so far. I saw the way that I could never be. that I wasn't. I learned to accept it. it was this way with everything.