Hi, I'm Nicole, I'm 13.

I know this is really weird. I know I'm still young. Anyways, here's my story:

Yesterday a package came in and I was with my friends. It was like ripped a little so my friend grabbed it and it opened a little. He started laughing because in it, were sex toys. I KNOW my dad would never use those or anything.. It was really confusing and disgusting and I had to make up a dumb lie and say that they were my sister's.. I just thought my parents were just doing that with those and yeah.. not this..

So today I grabbed my mom's phone and looked at her texts. She goes to the gym a lot, and when I mean a lot, I mean she's always gone. I saw this text that was like "I WANT YOUR BODY " And I thought it was just joking around. I clicked it.

I wish I could take it back.

There were naked pictures of my mom with the toys and this all was going on since before Thanksgiving. I hate myself for being so clueless. She is texting this guy with a wife too. In the texts he explains how he can't text her at the moment cause his wife just got home. He explains how he wants to do all these gross things to her and oh gosh it's so gross I can't even begin to explain..

I cried and I'm sick of crying. My dad loves my mom so much I don't think he wants to be divorced a second time he treats her like a princess he gives her whatever she asks. She just went out which worries me..

I wanna throw up.

The worst part is, I don't wanna betray my mom by telling my dad but I don't want my dad to be buying her all this stuff if she's just gonna go off and do stuff. They talked about meeting up and everything and it was disgusting.

Please help me. I know I may be a little young, but it's a lot for me to handle.