Hello I'm new here. I don't know where to begin but I'm going to have to keep it short because my mind is really slow and stupid. I am seriously depressed at this point and the primary reason I am this depressed is the massive memory loss and cognitive malfunction I've been experiencing. It is so bad that I am only 35 and I'm scaed to death that I have dementia. It's like a cross between dementia, amnesia, and brain damage and everything is in slow motion. I want to get something straight though. It's NOT depression or anxiety that's causing the memory/cognitive loss it's the other way around. It's the memory/cognitive loss that came first and is what is making me depressed. I didn't start feeling like I had dementia/amnesia until I was on just xanax for 8 months in 2011. My mind has been rapidly deteriorating ever since. Since then I have been on prozac again and then wellbutrin and then cymbalta. I was on cymbalta for about 9 months. But nothing helps with the depression because nothing will bring my mind out of whatever the xanx did to me. I seriously think that a low does of adderall over the course of several months is what would help. I'm sure they won't prescribe this to me just because of the memory issues but do you think they would prescribe it for treatment resistant depression? I feel adderall would reverse the dementia like issues the xanax caused, I feel it would reverse the anhedonia the xanax caused and the depression. But adderall isn't prescribed for any of that. Does anyone have any advice or suggestions?