I don't have any free time normally. I am kept so busy that I don't do anything for me. and this is why... with so much time to myself... my emotions are way out of control and they just keep getting worse and worse the more time I have to myslef... I guess i could do something but I can't drag myself away to do anything so it doesn't really matter anyways cuz i guess i'm not willing to put the effort into it so there is no point. when i am ready I will get up and do somethign i guess. i'm just not ready,.