Hi Everyone,
It was completely by chance that I got in contact again with my previous pdoc this week. The nurse where I live accidentally contacted her instead of my new pdoc to varify that I was stopping a med since he hadn't written the order in his notes.
Former pdoc and I ended up exchanging e-mails. Previous to this, in the summer when I first moved out here, she randomly said that she didn't want to talk to me anymore and wouldn't even give me my records which I needed to start at a day program.
Now surprisingly, she seemed happy to answer my med questions in a very straightforward way.
Anyway, our exchanges just made me wish that all pdocs would be as honest with their patients as she was with me. For example, she said I was wise to stay away from xanax because of how short-acting it is, wearing off after a few hours and then the anxiety comes back even stronger. She suggested klonopin if I wanted to take anything from the benzo family.
She suggested a starting dose for welbutrin, 75 MG twice a day, and suggested I tell new pdoc to start anything he gives me at the lowest possible dose and gradually increase it. This has always been her philosophy with dosing, and is so reassuring to me. I never had to worry about her overwhelming my brain with huge doses of meds. With this guy I'm not so sure. Him bringing me from 50 to 75 on the zoloft I don't think was the best idea. It caused me to be really hyper for like a day. Good thing it wore off.
Anyway, just frustrates me you know, that here she was so willing to answer my questions and the one I'm meeting with first of all, wasn't honest at all about the xanax. And said in general that he'd "never prescribe anything that would hurt me." That doesn't address my specific concerns.
Oh well, just saying it wouldn't kill them to just answer a patient's question honestly rather than being evasive, for any pdocs who are lurking here.