You know what I want more than anything? Seriously... I want someone to sit down with me, sincerely, and tell me it's ok to give up. to reassure me that it would be ok and that I didn't have to do this anymore.

that would mean the world to me. to not have to fight through these emotions everyday.... just give into them..... without the consequences..... just to exist..... it's a fantasy that I have. it exists far away, out of reach. this person, they would be my angel, my saving grace.