Wondering how you're doing, Calista. With your family treating you the way they are, no wonder you snapped. I'm sure it was all adding up for a while, but really, there aren't many things that feel worse than being rejected by one's own mother. It reminded me of something my mom did once -- something that wasn't a huge deal in the grand scheme of things, but was a very definite rejection of me, and it STILL hurts to think about (and that was 8 or 9 years ago!). I'm sure this is making everything much harder for you.

Definitely spill to T, if you can. Even if only little by little. You shouldn't be carrying all of this by yourself.