what would it be like to just give in to the emotions. to not fight them anymore. would it be bad? would it give me peace? Not sui or anything.... but to just give in and stop fighting. what would come of everything? is it the right step maybe and I'm too scared to take it? Or is it the wrong thing and I'm condemned to a lifetime of fighting them?

I just have to wonder what would happen. would it be giving up? what would it be?