You are not going crazy, you just have an imbalance in your brain somewere that needs corrected, medication or counseling may help. It sounds like you are aware of the problem and getting help, which is the first step! Great job on that, you can also research a lot on this website about your feelings to see what the problem may be. Hang in there, it will get better
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