Thank you all.
maybe I will try to excersise more, I haven't been doing so lately.
you guys are right, I ll try to push feelings away (negative at least).
my t today told me I often project negative thoughts more than positive, and I should try to at least see the reŝlts before I come to a conclusion.
thank god I'm reaching out for help, I usually have no one to talk to.

I hope everyone has a good day, nd I'm open to more suggestions.