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The reason I asked was just because I see all the posts about seeing T or going to session. When I was a teenager I self medicated with drugs, alcohol, sex and an occasional suicide attemp. Those attempts got my lock up. I actually had one psychiatrist send me home stating there was nothing wrong with me except I was a spoiled brat.
I can't go in an office with someone who will say "tell me what your thinking". Normally what I'm thinking at that moment had no bearing on my depression. And I don't want to go in and talk about my current problems because that always made me feel like I was just a winey baby.
The councelor I started seeing towards the end of my marriage was the best. As soon as my time started, she would ask questions....in dept question. After the second or third one, I was spilling my guts. That was the lowest time in my life.
I will say this, I am actually at a point in my life that I thought I would never be. After my divorce was final, I went through a 3 step mental process. When I was done, I decided to change my way of thinking. I had been told that many times in my life, but I didn't think it was possible. But because I was able to do it.....I have managed to keep my depression to a minimum. I don't waste my thoughts feeling sorry for what I don't have and wanting what others do have. I'm not saying I don't ever get into bad cycles, but they are way more manageable now.
Now I'm sure in about 3 1/2 years this will all change. Once my daughter graduates and leaves......I know I will be a basket case! I have actually talked myself in a deep depression just thinking how soon it really is.
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