I was in denial that were was anything wrong for a long time. Mental illness was not accepted in my family and I didn't even consider it a possibility. Then, my problems became much worse last year due to a relationship I unwittingly got in to. It was actually the other person who found and showed me the traits of BPD and upon reading them it all made sense but it's like my entire being went "NOOOO!!". After the relationship ended with a loud crash and I couldn't cope, I found my way here and started hanging out in this forum. It didn't take long for me to realize that there was no way I could deny it; everyone posting was just like me and I was accepted for the first time. I was officially diagnosed just a few weeks ago.