Yeah I just wish they would tell me if I am denied or not, or if my case is even being analized. I mean I need to know if its denied to appeal it and its a bit concerning when I haven't heard anything at all back since November when I first applied. I will certainly appeal it though if I do find out it was denied. Also I do try not to worry about it too much since it gets to be to much stress anyways, but I have to admit being 23, 25 in less than two years and 30 in less than 10 I really feel like I'm just wasting my life waiting on this but I don't see what other choice I have.

I can't function in society or well enough for a lot of jobs, there are a few part time jobs I could probably handle but then there is the problem of finding them. If I could find a commune or something that would basically allow me to get by without having to depend on this society that would be preferable but then there is the issue of potentially leaving everyone I know to live with a bunch of people I don't know so not so sure how i'd get along or whatever.