Oh wow, I am so sorry, pretending to be deathly ill... that is terrible, let's hope he doesn't have to actually experience being dealthy ill for real.

Please don't beat yourself up about it, you probably have had enough bashing around for a while now. It does happen, and that's what they mean when they say love is blind. It's a lot easier for other peopke to see it looking in then when you are actually in it.

I had a very sick very abusive ex. I know what it's like to keep hoping that the one you fell in love with returns. My ex once cut his own testicle so he could get out of the house to buy drugs. I didn't even know he was doing drugs, and yes I would have been extremely upset. He did that so he could say he was going to the ER. Saidbhe did it while shaving... Talk about weird. Your ex pretending he is dealthy ill just reminded me of that. It's games.. and some kind of illness, what does that to a person?

It is hard to let go, but I think you will be able to find your happiness again. Thia would be too much for anyone.

I am not sure how you can block someone from texting. But I am sure it can be done. In the meantime maybe find a way to focus on yourself, a way to nuture yourself a bit and get back to being you and enjoying it. Maybe try to find some things that you can strengthen yourself with in a healthy way. Breakups are hard, but the missing him will pass. And sometimes it is good to rememeber what we don't miss at least until we get passed this part.

I know it's so hurtful, just try to take care of yourself best you can!