These are sweet, compassionate replies, Perna and Bebop! Thank you. I just realized it's tiresome to me and all of you here for me to continue to wallow in this, despite the reality that I am being reclusive, and that it feels like a form of grief.
I agree that getting out to do just about ANYTHING is an antidote to my condition, even taking a long walk!
Thank you, friends,
Patty