Gaijin, yeah... in theory, we do all die alone- no one comes with us to the other side

but i'd like people to be around me when i die.. by my bed or what ever, i've been on my own and shut out for most of my life- so at least if i was around people i'd feel at ease in my final moments.. that at least someone cared enough to see me off, if that makes sense

i'm not sure what i'd like to do, probably just make some kind of a mark... do something useful for once in my lifde, even if it means something as simple as getting 1 good grade in aa exam.. it's something.

i can look back and say.... well my life's been a joke, but hey- i actually did accomplish something before i died.

that's cool