Thank you Raeface. I struggle myself, and often feel alone. It helps so much to realize that there are so many other people out there struggling as well. I don't know what to say, but I have a couple of thoughts.

Don't take it personally, but in my opinion drug abuse is something that worsens emotional instability and contributes to increased irritability. Also, I used to have a short fuse and quite the temper. I would have angry outbursts much like you described, but since receiving anger management I've been a pretty calm person. These are just things that you might want to think about. You can only do what you feel comfortable with, though. I don't mean to be pushy. I can't even imagine what it would be like to raise a child and deal with that kind of stress.

I hope you feel better soon!