I've known for a long time that something was wrong(I just didn't know what "it" was, and I certainly didn't realize how severe of a problem all of this actually is). It's gotten worse as I've gotten older, and therefore much harder to ignore/deny even though I still have days where I feel like nothing's wrong with me. That is, until I have another mood swing and then I'm in a suicidal rage or panicking or otherwise freaking out.