When I was getting sober ~ and not only "denying" myself of the alcohol, but of changing my whole life, the people, places and things -- my whole life was a paradox! The reading talks about feeling like we're coming apart. That certainly describes how I felt for quite awhile in the beginning. My head was racing with all kinds of thoughts & questions. But it was so muddled I didn't know what to ask!

So, my sponsor said, do the steps, take responsibility for my own actions -- which of course felt crazy since I hadn't done that in forever! And again, as the reading says - sane action is accompanied by crazy feelings! LOL
But after doing it for awhile sane action was accompanied by sane feelings!

That's not to say that once in awhile I don't have crazy feelings ~ I'm human, and occasionally my head starts telling me weird things. But if I remember what I was taught, and seek help from my Higher Power, I always return to sanity. God bless.