I kept a blog while I was inpatient a couple months ago. Its interesting to read where I was back then compared to now. You will get through this. This is the best place for you. Just go. We will be here for you when you get back.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg
Propranolol 40 mg
Benztropine 1 mg
Vraylar 4.5 mg
Risperdal .5 mg

Gabapentin 300 mg
Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily