Welcome Grownupchild to PC. I'm glad you reached out because ED is difficult to talk about and is a secretive thing for most women. I understand what you are going through. I was the same way when I started PC 6 months ago. I wonted help but did not wont to tell any one of the fear of people thinking I was to fat or just shrugging me off. This was a way for me to reach out for help with out my family and friends being alarmed. I found the support and encouragement I need to find help from a trained professional and I hope with time you will find the help you need to but we are all here to support you and answer any questions you may have.