I recently got in touch with an old high school friend, she mentioned about how painfully shy i was and she felt for me. I was just like you, painfully shy i mean, I am not lazy, but depressed. It always seems to be there.My parents ended up putting me in the hospital in the 1980's and had gone to day treatment for 8 years, after that. i know how it is to be shy, but for some reason, maybe the new meds i was put on 3 years ago, i am more functional, I'm disable from some accidents, i used to drink but now i love my sobriety for 10 years now. I guess i choose meds over alcohol, i have few friends left since i got married as we moved away from the city here all my friends were.I find it hard to wake up in the mornings I feel very anxious then, and lazy. I am not lazy by choice but rather from schitzoaffective disorder and other problems such as depression. you re not lazy it's just one of the side affects of whatever you have going on now, maybe our overwhelmed, i feel for you i've been through it all, and i have to say you can get even a bit better, the doctors nowadays are more compassionate than in the past things are more different and they have more knowledge of pshycology. i can never thank the people enough that got me through all the things i've been through-one thing i thought i would never say-i'm getting better and i thank them more than hate them now-avlady