Yes I have talked to him and he knows how I feel. We talk maybe once every couple months but it is really painful for me even to hear his voice. He has a completly different life now and is really happy. I am glad that he is happy but it just hurts me to hear about it because he is talking to me as a friend and I am still in love with him. I have not had counseling. I have never had any success with counselors in the past. They usually refer me to books to read or something. Have you been through a divorce?