Our semesters are kind of off, so final exams are only ending this week. Spring semester starts the end of the month.

We have a writing centre... but I know the kind of thing you are talking about, and no, we don't have one. The writing centre is staffed by volunteer students and possibly instructors. They might be able to help once I have something written down, but I can't even get to that stage.

And then I start thinking that I'm making excuses, being lazy... as if anyone would choose to fail courses they want to do well in due to laziness.

Part of it might be thinking that the research I'm citing already has all the information you need: go read them. They'll say it better than I ever could. And if I do try and force myself, my mind blanks out and I get anxious as hell. When my mood is better, it tends to be easier, though: that's what I'm banking on.