Simons right. I can also relate to some of what you said. From what I have learned over the years is that sometimes we stuff a lot of stuff down but it needs to come out. Whether to cry or get mad. Finding a way to let it out safely is the problem.We can be so numb that we don't even know its there until we start leaking out everywhere or get depressed. I took a course awhile ago that let us vent. After it was amazing how much lighter I felt. I can't release emotions when I am not safe or I feel judged. Now its like I am on a journey to find ways to tap into those old scary feelings and clean them out.Its hard work and you need someone you trust to just hear you and listen and be there no matter what you say. I sometimes wonder if everything I went throught would not have happened if I could have had someone just to LISTEN so I could work it out.