I will tell you a story about something related.

I have three children.

The first two were born in hospitals. I had really great, powerful, and efficient contractions so the OB-GYNs did not offer epidural - the usual way to deal with the pain of childbirth in the US. But towards the end stage of pushing, I was in great pain. I was offered pain reliever through an IV. I agreed, even though I had gone into labor planning on having it unmedicated.

The IV did very little. It "took the edge off the pain" as they say. The pain did not disappear. It was just a bit less, and even that, for only a short period of time. And then back in full force. Another IV, a bit of taking edge off the pain.

I did not like myself for agreeing to the medication, but I was in so much pain, so weak and vulnerable, that I agreed.

Before I got pregnant with my third child, I already knew what to do. I knew that in this vulnerable state I cannot resist being offered pain reliever, even realizing that it would do very little for me. And in general I do not have a lot of will power. So I removed myself from the situation of temptation - I had a midwife-assisted home birth. Midwives who catch babies at home do not have pain medicines on hand. So there was nothing to tempt me. Plus, they were supportive, literally held me, gave me a gym ball to lean on which helped greatly, and I had an absolutely awesome birth experience.

Pain medication through IV sedates newborns. My third child, when born, was not sedated at all. She was put to my breast right away and nursed until she was so full she fell asleep, but not from sedation - from having a full tummy.

I know I would have been unable to do it had I not removed myself from the environment that exploited my weakness and vulnerability.

Your situation is identical to mine. Being high, having had a little alcohol etc. makes you weak and vulnerable. Guys can exploit it. So the trick is to remove yourself from exploitative environment. That is why I suggest enlisting the help of technology, be it Skype, GMAIL, or whatever you use. Out of sight, out of mind.