My condolences, NightFire. I can't imagine how tough it would be to lose a sibling.

I've had trouble finding the motivation when I'm depressed, and I also have trouble focusing. Doesn't matter that I'm incredibly interested in the material, and it doesn't help that I always feel tired to one extent or another.

Now all those other things on top of the disorders you have... that is a heck of a lot to cope with, and it definitely doesn't help that your parents don't seem to understand. Do they know that you've been having these problems? And are you seeing a school counsellor or someone else that could help you with things, maybe start meds?

I'm not sure what to say, but I do know that you are not crazy. If you were, half the world would be, and then what's the point of saying you're crazy? You're dealing with a lot right now, and all at the same time. I'm glad you've been able to cope so far... I just hope you can get your parents to understand that as well.