If you are seeing your pdoc regularly, eventually, after adjustments, you should feel stable, or in other words, your definition of normal. As for the worry that people say you are strange, this may be a case a paranoia. During a period of my treatments with pdoc I had to ask a coworker to monitor my behaviors and let me know if I was being too extreme in any area.
Don't give up. Drug combinations take a while to determine what works best.
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