Do you feel all those things because of something in "real life" or here on the PC forum?

I do not think you are talking too much, for what that is worth. I am sorry you are feeling that way. Sometimes, it helps me to remember that feeling come and go, so I know they will not last forever. That comforts me when I am feeling something unpleasant because I now that I can just wait it out and I will feel better, sooner or later.

Other than that, maybe you could try to do something nice for yourself. Maybe take a bath with candles in the room, or color a picture or just hold play doh in your hand to enjoy how it feels and how moldable it is. I dunno. Maybe a walk or take you to a movie you have been wanting to see. Make your favorite dish. Find someone else who is hurting and try to help them.

I dont what else to say really. I am not trying to minimize how you are feeling by saying these simple techniques might help. I know that sometimes we can feel so intensely that we are not even capable of doing anything but rolling up into a ball and crying. But if, you can do any of those things (or other nice things for you) that might make you feel nurtured and it might take the edge off the feelings you are experiencing.

I wish I had more to offer. Keep us posted as to how you are doing please. Gentle hugs to you.