Dr. M, thank for your gentle manner and concern. You are the one who has truly seen me and my depression at my worst, even moreso than T, because you've seen the me in the hospital time and time again. You are the sweetest, gentlest soul, and you heard me yesterday. I appreciate that. I wish desparately that I could do what you say I need to do, but this is just not the time unfortunately.

So T, I'm going to need you to help me stay grounded over the next few days. I'll ask you for what I need when I see you today. I hope you'll agree to help me out here; I suspect you will; you know what is at stake.