Ima gonna have to reschedule my pdoc appt. ...
no funds.

I'm also just gonna have to get by on the meds I am currently on, cuz I can't get in right now to have them changed.

i'm going to have to make some changes around here.

first off, I have to get off this site.
it is triggering for me.
take that away... and I'll do much better.

second off...

well, i'll just have to be ok second off.

maybe it's all in my head. maybe bp is something that is as bad as I let it be. maybe it's not even real....

maybe, just maybe, i can get so involved in life that it will make it ok.
i suck at relationships... i tear them apart.

i suck at site's like this... they end up doing me no good...
i suck at mindfulness..... it's not for me.

i lose myself sometimes... but now I'm back and I'm making changes.

I hope that you all are doing well and continue to do so.

goodbye you all
and remember to stand tall
in the face of rememberance
of the times that made you fall
and in those times
I know you have learned something true
something to help you through the storms
something that will stay with you