I am just sad right now. A year ago today, I had my injury that changed my life and the course of my career and I just realized looking at the clock that it has been EXACTLY a year. And I am sad. And I am scared because they want me to come back and teach in the same place where I was injured, and I just don't want to step out on that mat.

I feel like a failure and that I am not worthy to be out there anyway, especially after not being able to complete my testing. Yes I graduated, but I still feel like I washed out.

Plus I get really really ANGRY. I feel like I was served an injustice and I just don't want that rage to come out either.

I should feel worthy, knowing they want me back. But I am just so conflicted right now. I mean, who do I think I am anyway.