[QUOTE=VenusHalley;2833404]in your case, I think, letting go abusive duraki in your life played a huge role in getting better emotionally.

Actually, I got better earlier than that. Not by a huge number of months, but earlier. And that I need so little medicine for sleep is thanks to him - both Elavil that I use now and marijuana that I used with success but stopped using due to cost/absence of dreams, Elavil and marijuana both in very low amounts, were his ideas. So have to give credit where credit is due. Sleep well - feel well when awake. So that is positive credit. He gets a negative credit for my having taken antipsychotics for so long with their horrible sexual side effects. He convinced me that I had schizophrenia and I convinced a reluctant p-doc, in 2009, to prescribe an AP. Because AP's are also used for pure BP (not schizoaffective but just bp), subsequent doctors have just switched AP's but have never questioned that I need AP's. Until I questioned it and went off and yesterday my p-doc agreed. I do not question BP, I have had the typical spending sprees that simply cry BP and I take Lithium for that and I did not buy a single piece of **** during my trip and I like that, but I do not need AP's (neuroleptics). That reluctant doctor who initially prescribed Risperdal thought that I was just bp and thus Lithium would be enough. I think now she was right. Yesterday the p-doc said that he, too, wondered about the mention of schizophrenia in my old chart because it did not compute in his mind.

I am really mad at ex when I think that from 2009 to 2012 I took AP's for no good reason. Thankful for the sleep medicine but angry due to the AP's.