oh my...i feel like you are saying exactly what i feel...i stay home cuz i cant work, have a 21 month old and a 9 qnd 10 year old and i can relate to how you are feeling. i am very fortunate in having a great husband who reminds me how devastating it would be for everyone. it may not seem it but no matter what your kids need you! you are MOM! it doesnt matter how much you cry, yell, etc they stiol love you and need you! when i get to feeling like this look at your beautiful kids, hug tyem, kiss them, hold them tight. they need you! im hopinh that you get to feeling better soon!!!