As I am getting properly medicated I am scared of losing my mania. I want to be better and not taking any dangerous gambles anymore, and I also want to get rid of my mixed episodes. But the truth is, after being unmedicated for years I am scared of being without the hypomania. I have gotten so used to that being my best parts that I dont know who I am without it. I am concerned my charisma will go away and i will be empty. I am worried my talents will deminish and my creativity will die.. I am scared I will lose me.
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32 year old married woman from Madison, WI
Living with Bipolar II with
Borderline Personality Disorder, PTSD Traits,Generalized Anxiety Disorder
Tim Burton Fan, Zombie Fan, Music Fan, Movie Addict
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