I think about blowin my head off day in and day out. Just that little demon on my shoulder constantly whispering in my ear whenever I get upset, stressed out, feel bad, agitated, worried about finances, or legal issues. Just that little "voice" in the back of my head that always says, "Ya know, you wouldnt have to deal with any of this anymore if you just put a bullet through your brain..."

And I just brush the thought aside and go on with my day. But it is much harder to brush it off when I'm going through a depressive episode, as the notion sounds perty good right about then.